This Week's Thoughts #1
These aren't my first thoughts of the week. In fact, I think a lot...sometimes too much. Other times, I'm not thinking at all. Sometimes I think too fast to write full-on elaborate pieces, so here's a peek into my brain how it rests in my skull, with no format or rules. I am almost too open for discussion.
- I shaved my head this week. I've had short hair for years, but this is the first time I've had a fully vulnerable scalp. It makes me feel poetic in everything I do. I feel like a floating face.
- I've been watching Gary Vee's YouTube channel, which has facilitated quite the 'fuck it' attitude in me. I don't think it's contributed to me cutting my hair (I've been thinking about doing that for a while) but it's definitely contributing to me not overthinking what I put out into the world. The highlight I've learned from his live advice with aspiring and current entrepreneurs is "stop worrying about other people" and "stop worrying about what other people think".
- I don't ever want to be famous. I'd rather be very valuable to a small number of people around me than iconic or known to millions of people.
- Lavender oil has been helping. I used to abhor the smell of lavender. I specifically remember being in the body care section of the body care section at Marshall's and TJ Maxx, where my mother and I used to frequent at least once a week living in New Jersey. Lavender smelled like what I imagined to be old lady diapers. The bottles lavender fragrance products were packaged in were baroque frilly labels. now, the smell is comforting and relieves my anxious, circular thoughts as we enter the eye of the storm of an international pandemic.
- I've been reading Social medium: artists writing, 2000-2014 by Paper Monument. Its a collection of essays and word art consisting of artists writing on artists' writing, art, their own art, the art world, the world in general and writing taking the form of visual art. One of my favorite essays within it, entitled "A Lawless Proposition" by Paul Chan, goes into why art is both a representation and a force against nature, in which he writes: The point of political violence is the restoration of a past that no longer takes part in life as it is lived. This violence institutes a new law to assert order against calls for change. But a paradox lurks: the new is essentially the old. In the coercive act, the law constantly becomes a new law. To maintain power, the state must be both lawful and violent, a refuge. of the old law and a source of the new. Caught in the dynamic to preserve and renew itself, the state reveals its own particular nature: a compulsion to repeat this traumatic cycle of law-giving and violence-making, to cling to continuity with a past that alone legitimates its authority...But even criminals follow the law as dictated by the nature of their own interest...This is why criminals are so captivating: they are ciphers of independence."
This passage, in addition to Gary Vee's post, has given me the chutzpah, to work to create freely what I want to do, as opposed to what I ought. Not that I plan on being a criminal any time soon, but I do question if the art that I create, which usually takes the form of writing–a craft with many rules, is being created with those dictated rules in mind, as opposed to the how I am initially compelled to create: my own law. I encourage you to question how you create and the rules you set on your creation as well.
-I'm very interested in post-apocalyptic fashion. As we're in this strange time, where everyone everywhere is wearing face masks, I think about how it became a streetwear item appropriated from countries like China, Korea, and Japan, who prove to be ahead of their time in sickness prevention. This is just a single example. I also think about the ragged aesthetic of, who soon will it be that we'll have to repurpose our clothing into something tattered, utilitarian, and sustainably designed. I think about all those Yeezy season collections, those faded grays, browns, tans, and blacks, and the ill-fitting clothing reminiscent of the matrix. I think about blogs like Herrurst, Authentic Stains, and this Ron Louis fleece set. This is something I want to talk about more.
-Yes, I still use Tumblr. Every single day. I think it's better than Instagram.
- My younger brother has a growing design book collection. I'm proud of who he's becoming. I don't hate his generation. I don't know what they're called, and at this point, don't care.
- I'm self-publishing a collection of poetry, called Life Imitates Earth. As it comes together I'm considering compiling all of the interviews I've ever done in a similar fashion.
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